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| instead i spend jean money on take out food for me and the boy this week.
need to make a priority list. and stick to it.
i need companionship. this is the first saturday free of an eight hour shift in hell in a long time. and i am sitting in my dorm room alone watching law and order like i do every other night of the week.
please, when i call, just talk to to me...
i guess it's my fault. i didnt go to the convention today. it's cause every time i plan something out, others rip it all apart. i hate planning my entire day around something and finding out moments before my day is to start that it has been canceled and i was just the last to know.
people. people people people. always messing up my plans. i make plans for a reason. i dislike uncertainty. please dont mess with them. ugh.
today i said these words of advice, that i should really take for myself, but it is so hard. i said obviously there is something hindering you at this point, because for some unknown reason, the universe and God's plan has something bigger and better waiting for you down the road. i just want to know that tomorrow will turn out ok. the only way i know how to do that is to plan for tomorrow. if i dont have the resources to go ahead with those plans...it makes me so anxious.
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| I am going to bring back xanga!!!!
its been a while. i quit main event. it rocks. i get to sleep on weekends now. but it has only been one week since i left. it was crazy going home and not having to rush around and go to work and i actually got to be at home when my family was!
downside, we have visitors. how dare they. i swear, have you ever heard of someone coming into your house, as a frikin visitor, eating all your girl scout cookies, breaking your dvd player, and taking your not-dry-yet clothes out of the dryer and just throwing them in a basket because they want to use it without even asking and they dont respect your wishes to decrease your electricity consumption by using cold water and waiting til you have a full load!!! and ate all your girl scout cookies!!! AND then calling long distance (without asking, again) to complain about you, while you are still in the house! grr i hate family...
so what else is new? nothing. i graduate in december. dont ask me what i am doing after because i have no clue. oh well. should be moving in with moe in may i think. taking like two summer classes, want to take more. mmm...classes.
i got to go learn me some international marketing!
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| i have "with a little help from my friends", the joe cocker version, stuck in my head. good song, stay.
see i've been watching the wonder years. woot woot. they have all these funny little tributes on youtube that when you think about it are kind of creepy. anyway, so i read that the reason the show isnt on dvd and it will never be is because of the rights to the soundtrack. first of all, the title song is actually a cover of the joe cocker cover, i wouldnt have known it sounds just like the one back in the day. producers only asked for permission to use the music in the original broadcasts and syndication, so they would have to spend a fortune on securing the rights for use in dvds blah blah basically they would make no money. makes me sad. the greatest show on earth cant be collected in a convienient box set!
the thing i didnt know (maybe it was that i didnt remember) is that kevin and winnie didnt end up together. boo hiss. what is that all about!? pfff. but yeah, that show makes me all nostalgic and crap. (how lovely). i want to look back on the years and wonder!!!
::comes down from the clouds::
work is going well i guess. i got to go to our employee party which was fun cause it was like free everything and i had only been working like 4 days or so. i guess im staying there this fall. i dont have classes on friday so i guess i could work thursday nights- sunday. which means closing shifts...i dont like those. i always feel like i am going to forget something and the world will just come crashing down. or at least the main event planning world...
the other downside is the fact that i will yet again be missing out on fun times in college. class stuff all week then working all weekend and when im not doing that, driving between class and work...i feel like i havent really gotten to experiance the traditional role of a college student (besides the sleeping in and gaining weight). Im so lame. i need to go out more often, have fun. the thing is my idea of fun is movie nights at home or lost marathons. i cant help it i just genuinely enjoy watching tv. im so weird, i would rather watch other people have a life than get one of my own? really?! geez...im lame.
aaaaaand...one last thought. i miss my boyfriend.
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| so im going to the midnight twenty tonight with my loves adam and moe. im excited im actually doing something later than 11 pm since ive been home. :p but yesterday i woke up kinda sick and so i have been really drowsy and i dont think im going to make it through the movie.
had my first training day at main event. the people in the sales office are fun. good thing about customer service people is that we're all really talkative so there's no weird getting to know you period, just jump right in. lol no but i did hear a few funny stories.
so now i really wanna go bowling. that's right.
you know what really grinds my gears? going to the doctor two weeks ago for testing and have them still not call me back with the results two weeks later. fucking A. my mom wants me to get a new doctor, but she just never liked her. i would like to get health insurance, but i just never liked paying for useless tests that im never going to hear about ever again. kind of makes me want to go see sicko. only i hate michael moore.
also i hate allergies.
other than that im pretty content with life. mom said something about wishing our lives would get better and i seriously sat there and thought wow, we have it pretty good. i mean sure there are hard times here and there but you know it could be much, much worse. im glad ive been so blessed. it's weird, im not going to lie i almost always take everything for granted. but today something just hit me upside the head and said woman what more do u want!? it was nice. lol.
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| i cant believe i havent written in this thing since april. may was a busy busy month what with finals and all. i managed to pass all of my classes which is good i guess im just so used to getting a's and a few b's that this semester made me cry. not literally but it does have me majorly upset.
so now i am taking statistics twice a week. i have had to miss about two classes due to the weather and tomorrow is the final and im panicing. i had a A for a while but i did poorly on the online test that was due last night. i dont know what to study since the test is cumulative i think i will be ok, i just dont understand regression at all. it upsets me when i dont understand things. i did my modules and that was fine but then when i tried to do a regression problem on excel it wouldnt work. so im clueless. and im blogging about it instead of trying to figure it out again.
have i mentioned my phobia of water and floods? well i have one. yesterday i spent the majority of the day checking the weather channel to see what conditions would be like on my way to class. well i kept seeing flash flood this and flashflood that and i saw some pictures of when denton flooded back in april and let me tell you i was scared. i just kept thinking how much i would panic if i was stuck on the road in that kind of weather, rain alone makes me nervous. and then i saw pictures of people's stuff all destroyed and man, it would just be horrible. so last night it took me a while to get to sleep, and im pretty sure it was because i was so anxious about the weather. its horrible. and my biggest fear is death by drowning. ::le sigh:: i know im being paranoid and exaggerating but it's just a fear of mine i dont get to vent very much.
well tonight adam and i are going to his friends for the fourth. i guess it will be fun. will get me out of the house. ive been really bored and school is the only thing that i have been able to focus on. at least on sunday i have orientation at main event and for the rest of the summer i guess that's going to be my life. im actually kind of excited. well i guess i'll go figure out statistics now.
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